I think its safe to say that for most of us, in some way or another, have been forced to reflect back at a situation or a period in life that we would say, yes, this experience showed me humility.
It could be a failed relationship, marriage, situation at work, situation with ourselves, lost or defeat of a sport we do, family or friends. Whatever it may have been, we might have been forced into that state of humility. For me that moment in my life has risen. I’ve prided myself on my career and reaching high goals. I have accomplished those goals and many others. But, it can all change quickly, very quickly.
The one area in my life that I thought I was great at, the one area I that I can honesty say, I put the most pride in......changed. It changed and I was faced looking at myself, my life through different eyes.
We are often told when something or some kind of hardship happens, that something good will come out of that experience. Yes, I do believe something great will come out of this change of events. But, until that change takes place, I am faced with a new face and that is humility!
Eating a piece of my humble pie, puts life in a different perspective. I think I have literally flush my body of self’s own importance. Oh don’t get me wrong, I’m a rock star in many ways, but there is a clear definitive way of being humble. I found this quote of which I must share. It is a great reminder to myself, right now, in the moment.
I may not like the changes of which I have been forced to make or I may very well like them. But, the quietness of my heart over the past few days is that perfect humility that I may have seeked for so many years.
And this my friends, is where I am at. I will eat another piece of that humble pie on Sunday, after some excitement of a dear friend whom has encouraged me to race cyclo-cross I will take a leap of faith and throw myself to the wolves, I mean cyclists. These are some fast people, experienced and determined, I am honored to be sharing the dirt, grass, sand, or whatever elements being thrown at me are.
So, my weekly song is a song I haven’t heard for a long time. A song that reminds me to keeping moving along! Much love and peace to you all!
Sorry for no post last week. No sleep and countless hours of scrambling around to figure out what my next move was going to be, well let’s say, it didn’t allow much time for writing.
So, before I begin I share this quote a dear friend sent me, funny thing is I didn’t get the chance to read it right away and when I did, it was like it was waiting there for me to open it up.
I did post this on my Facebook page, but if we are not friends, then you get to enjoy this quote with me now
You cannot unknow what you know. You cannot unsee what you have seen. You cannot turn back and erase the moments, no matter how painful they may have been. You cannot erase the first times or the second chances to re-experience them. You cannot get back your time or your younger years. And once you've been to the edge of things and stood there at the end of the cliff and peered down, you cannot just go back to living the way you were. You are changed. You have seen. You have known. And all you can do is be, be right here, be right now, in this moment, to see more, to know more, to stop pretending we are something we are not. To stop hiding who we are and what we want in this life. Because that cliff will eventually come for all of us, and when it does, I will not close my eyes as I stand at the edge with the wind against my back. I want to feel every last gust of air, I want to see every last color of the sky, I want to know what it truly means to live even as I fall into the ocean.
I will fall with my eyes open and with my arms spread wide, just so I can feel every last drop of this life on my way down. And just maybe, maybe right before I hit the water, I will instead catch the air...
It was a good reminder to me after the events that took place for me this last week. Those of you that are close to me know the challenging events that took place and all I can say in regards to that specific event is.........................THE TIME IS NOW!
I will share more later, I promise, but this is a time where the situation is sensitive and something I need to keep on the down low. I do know that the outcome will be substantial, along with great! One may ask me HOW, how is it that I’m so certain of the outcome without reaching it yet. Easy, I just know, I know that in this moment and soon, I will be looking back and smiling to myself that I am so happy to be where I am and what it took to get there.
I wish you all a wonderful weekend and much love to all who read my blog. Thank you!
And yes, can’t finish the week off without a great song! Also, this amazing women, who was hit with a major blow to her cycling profession, gave me a reason to ride my bike, I continue to be inspired by the likes of her! I remember this song being on her "myspace" page, yes before Facebook got big! http://www.tarallanesclassic.org/about-tara/
I can fully say that the quiet time I have had with myself this week has been absolutely wonderful! After spending a weekend with myself other than a short hike with a friend on Saturday, I believe I have reached that moment of gratitude of being by myself.
So simple I know, but something that has taken me years of finding peace and happiness with. Having time alone and doing what I wanted to do, with no timelines, no other schedules, people, or distractions was the quiet time my mind needed.
I was able to get a bike ride in on Sunday up in Boulder. Actually quite refreshing to ride some trails that I don’t visit too often. Passing and exchanging hello’s with strangers and simply just enjoying the beautiful surroundings on the bike. Peaceful is my expression and my moment of Ahhh sensation.
Although I know, my brain is running full force, I felt like I was able to control my thoughts and be aware of myself, in a way that I never experienced.
In preparing this week’s blog, I told myself it would be short and to the point. Sometimes it’s a good thing to give our brains that much needed break. I close with the thought, that this week has been nothing but a beautiful ride.......
And of course, I am closing with a song, this just had me thinking about bikes!
