Present Day

In order for me to explain some of my past experiences over the last few months, I have to forward to the present day. As I mentioned before, I am working with a life-shaping coach. I am challenged weekly with tasks she gives me. I'm at the stage of this program where most people give up, but not me, oh no, I'm an Aries, a ram, bold, hard-headed, keep hitting my head on the wall until I get it kind of girl. 

The trail of conversations..................

I meet with Lieanne once a week, the past 4 weeks have been quite challenging. See I have homework pretty much every week and then we go through the homework together. I haven’t been able to successfully achieve the latest section, although I know I will, it’s much harder than I imagined. I have to document two conversations I have with myself. Then we break these conversations up into two main thoughts. We have what is called “clear thoughts” and then “chain thoughts” 99% of our thoughts are chained thoughts, rarely do we have what is actually a clear thought.  But we do have them.

My personal challenge has been getting those 2 conversations down on paper. Amazingly, I still filter my own conversations, without getting down the meat and bones of the conversation. Now, I know this may seem quite easy, but it really is not when I make this attempt. I have not given up yet and will keep plugging away though, because that is what I’m good at!  I’m so laughing at myself right now.

What I have taken away from this? Up until this point, I can say that I’m really embracing and listening to other conversations around me. I think if we all sat and recorded our conversations, provoking would be one way I could describe what I hear. But during these conversations, I’m still have conversations with myself. Funny how I caught myself doing this just last night while I was talking to my mother. I found myself even during the conversation trying to convince myself on how I felt about a specific topic, even when she was talking. ARGGGGH.  

So, back to hitting the pen to the paper or in today’s world, keystrokes on the computer. Oh, why is this all important, well there is an answer, but you have to wait until next week and I will let you know if I have passed the challenge.


The journey continues..........................